Thursday, July 16, 2009

be positive, be happy, and just have pure fun

After last night talks with bros, damn I feel good.
Looking back at some of my old pics, they remind me of who I am before. happy-go-lucky, like my dad :p
Some pics bring back hurtful memory :'(
I want to be happy or depressed?
Of course I want to be HAPPY! :D
Depressed? No thanks. I don't wanna be emo~
Seriously being emo can affect people around you.
Today Im just happy because Im glad to remember abit of who I am before any girls came into my life yet...except for my mom...and tiny crushes.

Monday, July 13, 2009

confusing feelings...

Nowadays, my feelings is very confusing. I don't want this to repeat again but i can't help myself. I think...I should back off abit now...I don't want to hurt myself again.
All the negative thinking, all is mingling with my mind.
I don't know....
Right now is my very confusing period :S

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Feeling better nowadays

I definitely feel better nowadays. Lost my control of my emotions the night when i post "why bring laptops when hanging out" Ok, that night Im really stress because of some reasons. One of them is I had no work at work. That will stress me out ok. Its so damn boring ah!
But now feel better, companies of close friends, hanging out, and most importantly i had something to do now at work. Have to write a logbook of what I have done at work. I can smell its time to make up stories XD
Feeling much more better because something make me feel better, if you know what I mean :p
Right now posting this at my workplace, not that I have nothing to do but Im just taking a break ;)
Can't wait for the coming weekend. Im sure its going to be awesome~
Hmmmm....clubbing perhaps? :p
Its been so long since I had the drink of my life. I wanna get HI~

Sunday, July 5, 2009

time when i miss her...

Time when I miss you
the second hand stop
image of you and me
burning in my mind
my heart sank
my feeling for you deepen
yet i know its wrong
but I just couldn't forget
It's just me
someday, somewhere, somehow
I will find my soulmate

;)

Friday, July 3, 2009

boring...why bring laptops when hangout

Right now Im hanging out with friends
Just now a friend reminded me to bring a laptop
and I knew later its anti-social time
and damn Im right on~
Right now the peeps are doing their own things in their own world....
some played facebook games, some played youtube, some doing their OT(what? I had no idea)
I don't really like this situation now
next time i shall demand no laptop when hanging out or maybe just allow 1 or 2 laptop
but heck no everyone pls
its so anti-social when we are actually trying to social..
although im blogging now.
what to do...everyone is in their own world now as i have said

I blue she blue...

I wonder what will happen if I am to meet up with my bros earlier at Gadong last night?
That I definitely will meet up with you
and what would i say? Nothing I guess, just a simple Hi....
And I guess its the big boss above doing,
that Im not going to meet you
Pretty tired...
this life...you and me...everything else...
I choose the path to be a successful person
and I believe by that time, everything will be unfold
I will get what I desire most,
that is to be loved by the other half.

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Tomorrow o Future~

Every night, in my world I am lonely
On my bed, memories of you in my mind
Hours passed, slowly dragged into the dark world I was
You were my light once, this world is once again so cold
I searched for the warm light but I failed miserably
Then there's this bright light, oh hello Mr Sun
I realised, my world, do not revolve around you
Tomorrow arrived before our future come
You were a memory of mine
I will find another light of my life.

Original by me ;P

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

A dream too good to be true....

Last 2 nights, I dreamt of you.
The dream is so sweet
I realised I was smiling when I woke up
But then the dream is just too good to be true
I dreamt that everything clear up between us, all those misunderstanding
We were spending happy time together
I was the happiest guy...in the dream
but reality is harsh
I guess you and me don't have any future together
not that I gave up on you
but you did...
I tried and tried
yet you disappointed me once and twice...and thrice
My dad opened up my mind, he's the man who taught me about life
He said that Life...is just like an examination paper.
There's alot of difficult question just like what we will meet in our life
There will be one or few questions that you can't solve at that instant moment
So what can you do is to skip that question first and came back later after you know how to solve
You were the one question that I failed to solve over and over again
I have to let you go, I can't waste my time on you only
There are much more for me to do in life
I would still treated you as a friend even if you don't anymore...
You will be a memory of mine, a sad and painful one.
But Thank you for giving me a happy memory too.
The time we were close friends, its really the best moment of my life
You were the friend that I don't want to lose...

my 1st attachment

Today, I start my 1st ever attachment. Its so boring ahhh!! Not going to say where I work here.
Im rocking to hell now cause of Nothing.
Make me rethink should i work for government or not. I guess most government's job is doing little things or sometime Nothing.
Man, i guess i want adventures...i want to do something and feel proud of what i have accomplish.
But Life is never easy. You gotta sacrifice something for something you want.
Life is not smooth....if it were smooth, I will be bored to death too.
Haih, gonna stay 1 month at my current place. Hopefully my next month attachment will be better or else.....I may gone haywire!